Busy Living

Been awhile since i've updated this. Time is hard to find and internet is weird here. I think i figured it out though. This weekend i've been trying to get on but i can't for shit, but then today on a weekday i can. We live next to a big ass bank so i'm guessing that the connection i'm stealing is coming from the bank, so if i'm right i'll have internet m-f at my house.

I'm so behind in this blog i have so much to say just not the time to say it. I'm still working things out with grungey and will start training this week once i get in contact with him, hes been running workshops so hes busy all the time. I talked to him and hes told me hes changed his style a lot to a more direct one, he'll obviously still teach the indirect style and be able to pull just fine using it but he says the direct style hes been working on is yielding amazing results for all his students. I'm assuming its based on really making a strong connection with her and putting yourself out there on the line.

I've been doing sets, but not as many as i'd like. Last week was cold as fuck and theres no heat here in mexico so being outside is the same as being inside COLD AS FUCK, could actually see my breath in the house.

I've done a few sets everyday though and usually get a number off it, i'm doing short sets but once i'm doing grungeys training i'm assuming i'll be doing longer sets cause he'll probably have me do an instant date right there and bust out my grounding routine on the instant date.

But as far as my 10sets a day i'm behind about 70-80 sets right now so i have a lot of sets to get into. (this goal of sets will change probably today once i get on grungeys plan)

I looked for a toastmasters club around here, but i think there all in spanish. I think toastmasters is one of the most undervalued resources out there for the community. Almost everyone has speaking anxiety and being able to give a speeches every week infront of people and get involved with speaking competitions with judges etc is an amazing way to improve yourself in so many ways. Tolerance to social pressure, body language, frame, the way you come off, etc. So i'm contacting one of the clubs today, if its in spanish i might say fuck it and still do it just to be speaking infront of a group.

I still have the lay report to write out and some other reports. I going to write about what happened last night though since its fresh on my mind.

I was with a group of people at hooters, we end up coming back to my place....3 of my guy friends and a girl that i don't really know. The guys end up leaving and the girl stays and drinks beer, i actually motion for my friends to leave because i want to fuck this girl. They leave and its me and her.

We start talking about being abroad etc then she goes into a story about her following night i ask a question and she tells me a story of basically getting snatched from her friends and raped by this mexican guy who claims his dad is the mayor and he can get away with whatever he wants. She tells me the whole entire story.....a terrible story, this really pissed me off to hear it. I don't get mad about much but the one thing that sets me off is hearing about bad stuff happening to people from other people and the only that makes me madder is something bad like that happening to someone in my family or friends.

She showed me some of the bruises etc, actually wasn't as bad as she thought it was but still she was bruised up on her body. I really felt for her, i def couldn't say i know how you feel since i've never been raped but i told her to tell me everything and just get it all out and cry all you want i'm right here. She only told her roommate and i guess they didn't really show the support that i showed. She basically was in that hell for 5hours and afterwards went home and just laid in her bed so she really didn't get to talk about it.

We stayed up for awhile, she told me everything i just made her feel really comfortable expressing herself. (I'm trying to figure out what to do, she could go to someone here which i def gonna have her do but i don't really know how much justice can be done here since its corupt here and the guy is supposed to have power. She has his email and number, so what i want to do is have her to call him over then me and 20 of my friends will pound him into the ground and cut off his dick, cut out his eyes and some of his tongue off..... which i wouldn't have any problem doing but i think he would end up dying if 20 people jumped him, i think there would be a slim chance we'd get caught but i don't know ....i really feel for her and want to kill him but i have to understand that i can't save the world.)

I let her know how i'm the protector of my loved ones (I swear if someone ever did anything to someone in my family or close friends my mission from that point onward would be to kill them or die trying, i know it sounds insane to a point but i don't care and i let her know that)

Her situation is a mess and i don't know how involved i can get with it.

We talked about other stuff and connected really fast, probably faster than i've ever connected with anyone in my life (its such a shame how terrible events can connect people so fast, but when things are good and normal the same people probably would never get to that level of connection (i really need to get good at rapport so i can do this with people without there having to be a bad event))

We sit on the couch, i don't want her to feel as though i'm taking advantage of her so i let her know that she can trust me and if at anytime she felt uncomfortable to let me know. I could see her connection and attraction to me. I told her that she could feel safe with me and not worry about anything. She cuddled up with me on the couch and i just held her. Some time passed and i figured she'd just spend the night so i asked her what time i should set the alarm for. She seemed really happy that i was going to let her spend the night. We held each other all night, it felt really good for me and her.

I'm positive we could of madeout right there and had some passionate ass sex but there was no way in hell i was going to be the one to start something with her after all she went through.

Its at the point right now that us having sex is assumed, i'm sure she feels the same way. It'll naturally happen, but will have to wait until shes ready and feels comfortable.

This morning she said her body was aching i rubbed her softly all over and gave her some pain killers. She really didn't want to leave and go to class but she had to, i went down stairs got her some food, water and caught her a cab. She doesn't have a phone at the moment but we setup a meet for later today.