Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Current Situation

Well unfortunately things aren't the way i originally thought the would be. Its looking like i was just flat out wrong about it being easier to get results in Monterrey. I'll own up to being wrong, but at the same time I'm still trying to figure out what gave me the perception that it was easier here. I'm going to list some ideas.

-Being black/foreign does result in attention, people do look, people are curious, we are different(and increases the more south you go) , this probably lead me to believe that girls would be more in tuned to have sex.

-Before going on my exchange i was basically at one of my lowest points still, depressed with the whole ex situation, no friends, no other girls, no nothing. So coming to mexico and instantly making friends, having fun times, and getting attention from girls for the first time in months was huge for me compared to what i came from and as a result of that misinterepted how easy it really was.

-I was doing LOTS of approaches so the results i did get were probably just standard given the amount i put in, but that didn't register at the time since before that back in usa in my depression was getting 0 results, so the results i got here seemed HUGE compared to that, even though they probably weren't even that impressive.

- I have a lot happy good memories associated with mexico, so i guess i just figured it would happen again.

- Lots of other people getting laid, since there were so many internationals hearing like 6 different sex stories, from 6 different guys seems like a lot but it really could just mean they had sex with only 1 girl. So if everyone just fucked 1 girl but referenced that over 200+ international guys it would seem like a lot of fucking is going on but say in reality everyone just fucked once.


Again i'm not making excuses, i'm just trying to personally figure out what i was thinking before. I own up 100% to being wrong. I feel gulity about it, i don't like being wrong, and leading people on to believe something is going to be one way and it turns out the other. I pretty much gave up with day game for now by reframing and saying "well i was wrong, as played the time of going out to campus getting numbers, calling numbers, going on day 2's, taking L's, is better spent playing poker, making money, and going to the spot here and there"


At the sametime though, i'm feeling like flawless did in this post http://flawlesspua.blogspot.com/2008/08/getting-really-distracted-and-forming.html...... And yes i understand that getting laid is very important and everyone thought it was going to be really easy and that i was wrong etc, but after coming to that conlusion it still doesn't have to be an L. Were in a fortunate position where we can travel and have more freedom than our friends back home. And for me as much as i enjoy getting laid, i value having fun times with friends a lot more. Were all here together so we might as well make the best of it and go out thurs-sat night or something for our own fun and enjoyment. Like back during my exchange the whole point of going out at night was to go out, get drunk together, and let the fun flow from there. (obviously everyone wants to get laid, but that wasn't the reason for going out)

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Where do i start

Well its been a long time since i've last posted in this blog. I could go on forever, but i'll keep it in control. In a nutshell.....played a shitload of poker, ended up in a relationship for 4-5months with a hot aussie girl, graduated college (sort of, 1 class left).

Right now i'm in Las Vegas traveling around with carl, nir and sean. Last month we were in austin texas living literally right in the party on 6th street.(we step outside and people are ALL over the place)

This has been a very vauable experience for me. First off i'm traveling with 3 guys that i really enjoy being around, hanging out laughing having good times (even though sometimes tendicies of living so close to the same people can be annoying at times....can someone say messy!), i value this a lot. Secondly, what i've learned from poker in this time frame has been amazing, and i owe a lot to carl and nir for sweating me, playing sessions of there own, giving there opinions etc, and even sean, just being able to talk over hands and explain different things to him has helped me a lot.

The main issue now is, us all being around each other really makes staying on task hard, like right now i'm up at 6:12am in the morning. I should be following a strict schedule that has me playing a shitload, getting sweated a shitload, reading a particular amount of hands, daily. But with everyone here getting distracted is so easy. Someone wants to go out, i might of had a good day or something, alcohol is right there and before i know it i'm out partying, then eating at the palace station afterwards and going to bed at 7:00am and waking up at 4:30pm all mixed up.

This has been a problem for me and i know carl for awhile, managing our time. it seems like such an easy thing to do in theory, but the pratice just seems to always fail us. Its even worst now since were in the same house, before i feel like us talking on aim and the phone would be partly to blame with our wasting of time, but now that were in together in person wasting time is easy as fuck, and to top it off we even have a pool table here. And honestly i can't blame anyone but myself for wasting time, i just need to have better self control and will power.

Were going to mexico for the next 2 months. I'm looking forward to this a lot, since i obviously had the time of my life there. The lifestyle i was living was so fun. I remeber the first 2 months was just pure partying at night and hanging out with people having bbqs and shooting the shit during the mid to late afternoon. It was such a social diverse thing. I remeber when Jordan had the idea to throw a big cookout party at our house right at the begininng of the semester. Just so many good times.

I've really talked mexico up big, espcially the girl situation. Being black/looking different really seems to get a response out of a big percentage of the chicks there. So carl,sean and nir all have really big expectations which they rightly should, since based on my experience everyone i knew there had great success with the chicks (non spot chicks :) ) at the sametime though its not as easy as show up with your cock out. The mexican culture is interesting in there customs. Some of them have this religious programming that puts a block on a lot nuts. So L's do exist, logistics still exist as well too, but as a whole to put it in poker terms were all A LOT more +ev in mexico than in the usa for getting laid.

I remeber getting numbers was so fucking simple that i had a huge spread sheet full of them. My down fall came at having a really clingy jealous gf that was hard to get away from to actually have a day 2, still finding myself (my identity at that point was still just being molded, i like to look as this experience as my "rebuilding" since the whole reason i went to mexico in the first place was to escape a really depressing ex gf/loss of identity/purposeless situation in the usa), not wanting to "put in the slighest amount of work" (i was still keeping my budget a bit tight so i didn't like the idea of having to go out and spend money and end up not fucking THAT night/day, since i had to really set my Day 2's up to times and situations where my gf at the time was busy or away that i needed to get the results fast since i couldn't have consistant meet ups that would eventually result in sex), trying to cut down on the nights i spent out, after the first 2 months of going out NIGHTLY and getting drunk i had to slow down. Me and jordan both started eating really healthy and limiting ourselves to 3 nights of heavy partying a week.

Despite this i still was able to get some results (easy easy easy numbers, eaaasy day 2's, makeouts, sex (3 not counting my gf or spot) i'd of never got in usa under the same circumstances.

Now for the next 2 months in mexico i haven't really figured out what my plan is going to be for the chicks. I still want to play a huge amount of poker. So managing that with chicks/social life is gonna be interesting. Numbers will build up fast, translations will be an issue with some chicks but not a devestating one, lots of day 2's, maybe even mistaken overlaps of us talking to the same girls lol. The other issue is mexican girls are very jealous, so once people start hooking up, the connections fall etc and they become very possesive. There will also be a fair amount of international students there that'll be cool to fuck/befriend, which could easily lead to more L's since they love to travel to other places in mexico and i could see someone getting invited a long a trip with them. So all and all its going to be very interesting to see how our schedules are going to play out. the schedule i want to have is playing during the day and going out at night, the problem is that though is going out at night means getting in at fucking 5am, having girls come back, going somewhere else with a chick or a group etc, so bed time turns into somme early ass hour then waking up mid afternoon and not having the time to put in poker, so i may actually have to be lame and limit going out to thurs/fri/sat (other than the first week), or maybe having some lighter nights where we have get togethers at our place or something.

Well i should probably go ahead and call this a night or morning .......