Update Time

So i haven't been keeping up to date with this blog. I stopped posting awhile ago but at times i'll come back and read over things i posted and see such a drastic change in myself/beliefs/values overall perspective in just a few months. Like its hard for me to even relate to the last post i made in here and i think a lot of this has to do with me coming more and more into alignment.

So right now i'm not working on game. Not doing cold approaches, not doing any of that. I'm focusing my time on playing poker and getting good and making money. My friend Carl's descriptive info in his myspace page sums me up and how i want my life to be. I made the decision to put everything i have into poker. Failure isn't an option for me, its just not possible i will do whatever it takes, i will be making 10k+ a month from poker.

It all lines up, playing poker for a living allows me to have the lifestyle i want to have, which is travel, great relationships, freedom. The funny thing is not being "in the game" has seemed to improve my game and overall social skills. Now i'm not sure if this is a blind spot thing where i'm saying well i'm not in the game now so i don't have to approach since i'm not working on that right now so i can feel "superior" and not bad about any interaction i may have that goes wrong because i'm not working on that. Doesn't feel that way to me though. I credit the change to becoming more in alignment with myself, slowly falling into the identity i want for myself and taking the action to do so. Making the decision that i will play poker for a living (at least for the initial part of my wealth plan before i get involved with assets) really lined stuff up for me. Its like i have purpose now and know what i should be doing at all time. I know why i'm doing what i'm doing, it makes sense to me i'm not playing some guessing game about my life and lying to myself about what it is i really want about life. Its like the path is clear to me. I see hot girls, i want to fuck them, but i don't feel any urgency, need because i know what i'm doing will result in the freedom to aquire that in the near future, so therefore i'm at ease. I don't care as much now about whatever people think, i still feel social pressure in situations, but generally i feel a lot more relaxed. Just the feeling of being on your purpose, taking action to make your dreams reality feels amazing and has brought a sort of calm more charismatic me out. I find it really interesting, that one switch that one line up thing in my mind did all of this. So much of tyler's stuff is becoming clear to me. I remeber a guy asking about his trouble hooking sets and how and tyler told him its about WHO you are. 6months ago i really couldn't get that it made sense on some level but i was thinking hmmmm can't there just be a line to hook? But now it makes so much sense. The whole idea of being in alignment, figuring out what you want from life, how you want to live it then going for it despite what anyone says and giving it everything, making failure not an option, you either get it or you die trying to get it, is just so powerful. Coming from that place the whole frame of an interaction is changed, your offering value, your happy with your life, you have abundance you not in need your cup is over flowing. Just amazing how i feel now and how coming more into alignment has created this. I'm not saying i'm done or made it i still have a hell of a long way to go, but from where i started being where i'am now at my age knowing 100% the life i want and knowing that for certain i will get it or die trying to get it has so much value to me.

Good Night

Really proud of myself tonight. Rolled out with the same frame i had during the festival. My goal was to go out and just spend an hour getting in a talkative state first at the 3 bars near me then roll to the others. So i roll into the first bar and just start talking to the first person i see, which was this chick didn't go so well i just saw her and asked her name chatted for a sec. Then count down in my head, i just kept jumping in sets. I rolled to the next bar did the same thing. Talking to everyone. My interactions were lasting longer at this point. I talked to some guy and tried to get him to come into a set with me since the set was big like 5-6 chicks, he started coming up with these excuses talking about how his brother does that etc i was like ok. So i just rolled into the set, the lead girl was a tad bitchy, i announced this must be the leader right here which was funny cause she was. I chatted a bit with every chick in the group. When things dulled out i rolled around and some girl was looking at my shirt in a crazy way and her friends were laughing, i was like wtf is this, and she was like i thought your shirt said cut. I was like ohhhh well guys let me ask you something, my friends been chatting with this chick for awhile but i think hes in the friend zone is there anyway out of that shit? They all gave there answeres and shit i was busting them on everything i was on like hell in this set. They were all just focused on me like 4 chicks just surrounding me listening to everything i said, busting up laughing on all my punchlines. Was thinking damn is this for real? I'm not even drunk? wow. An asian girl near me bumped into my ass so i was like did u grab my ass and her firend was like let me find out, the girl was like no no and busted her on it and she was like but i will grab it now which was funny. So she kinda knew the other girls so got that shit merged she was also with a girl so it became a 6set of chicks with them all on me, couldn't hold them all though people broke off, i end up beside this one girl and got in pretty good rapport with her, classic life shit what do you do family all that stuff but she wasn't the best looking the world so i moved to antoher chick and to the asian girl but they were leaving and group was all over the place, some of them had bf's etc. I eventually roll to the next bar. SOme guys are in there doing a crazy dance so i ask about it and get involved, then i open a 3set with 2 chicks and a guy. Set went well the girls were drunk but i was in that bitch for 30min talking to them all and had each girl 1on1 sort of but the drunkness was annoying and they were sort of out there. I roll to the enxt bar and this guy ends up teling me all this depressing stuff i wasn't trying to hear he was cool though just got on the wrong topic. The bar was dying so i rolled up town a bit. The bar i wanted to go to had a huge line, some chicks came up said damn this was a bust and i was like hell yeah it was, and walked back and chatted with them for a bit. There was a freestyle battle taking place on the street between this black guy and white guy i saw when i first was walking to the bar coming back the shit was getting hype like a fight was gonna break out so i stood back and observed. Apparently the white dude said some racial and the black dude wasn't going to have that. They were talking shit to each other. The white dude went to dap him and the black dude lunged and picked him up and slammed him. then put him in this head lock people were trying to break it up but it really wasn't much of a fight just a guy in a head lock, black dude finally let him go, some chick called the police that was that. I chatted to the black dudeds boy for a bit , the black dudes is some big beat boxer or something opened for naughty by nature. The black dude came back and was chill, talked with him a bit he told me what happend and how he couldnt' let someone walk over him etc. then the white dude came back to try to call a truce and the black dude was like nah fuck that we can fight and put down his monster enegery drink that he ran across the street and bought after the first scuffle and assumed a fighting stance. More talking and the white dude rolled out. Talked more with the guys and the itailian guy was inviting me to this club with them and he had this strong frame where it was like damn its hard to say no but i was thinking in my head no way in hell i'm rolling with that hostle black dude so i was like yeah that would be cool oh shit 1 sec (pretended to get a phone call,i'm good at faking phone calls so i pretend it was a good friend i chatted told him about the black slamming the dude infront of him i could see the smile of validation on the black guys face as i told my fake friend on the phone how he slammed this guy, then pretended the guy was back near i was and had his girl and her friend) so told them i had some potenial pussy they said yeah hop on that so i rolled out. Started raining hardcore so i just rolled back home.

Festival

Went to this festival here. Bands, drinking all sorts of shit going on. I go out but this time my mission is to get myself talkative. So what i do is do a count down 10,9,8 etc to 1 and i have to be speaking to someone before it hits 0, a guy, chick, man wooman whoever just speaking. I did this for awhile just coming up with anything asking questions, making comments anything i could. This got me in a good state and from there i got in a so so set with this chick. We talked for awhile i went for the venue change to sit down but she was like i have to fill this drink up and walked to do that, i was like ? It was going so well. Anyways i'm gonna try that 10sec count down thing out tonight.

Bad Night

So i went out tonight, got out later than i wanted to. My wing was off doing whatever so i rolled out solo. Got to the bar, got a beer, chatted some guys for alittle while then after that pretty much got inside my head. It wasn't even AA, i was just in a lame inside my head state. Sucks eh? Then i'd see all these sets that i felt i could own with my wing there like it was nothing. Well it is what it is and last night was a bad night.

Getting caught up with the day'2 FR's

HBBigButt

I sarged this girl a week ago when i was on a sargeathon one dawn/night. She was walking towards the campus and i opened her on campus with asking how to get to x location, which she told me and from there i just kept the conversation going with basic stuff. Its a quick set because she was in a hurry to class but very efficient.

Day 2 HBBigButt

So day 2's are tricky for me because of my fb who thinks she my gf living a block down from me. But i still get show up for the day2's. I meet her then walk with her to this restraunt sort of hangout place. I sure as hell didn't feel in state upon seeing her which is frustrating since i've been on a number of day 2's. We sit down at the restraunt thing and both have a beer. I'm sitting there feeling like the scrambling team tyler talks about in the foundations. It felt like the conversation was a big layer of fake and someone needed to say ok lets cut this bull shit. (it probably wasn't really that bad, we had a conversation going etc it just felt like it wasn't really real, like i wasn't coming from a place of realness, like if i said you know what, i'm going to be honest with you, i don't know what it is, but theres something about you that i like and i'm not going to sit here and hide it behind some bullshit space filling questions. If i said that it seems like i would then be coming from a place of realness, my state would follow and thus our interaction would have been better)

So any how i get through conversation with her then i suggest we go to a near by park. We go there, and sit on the swings and talk. Things get really good at this point, i'm telling her stories and shes laughing really hard. It feels real and in the moment, it was a lot of fun for us both. We went all around some wide and deep rapport before it was time for her to go. Walked her back to her place, it felt weird again at the end when i was at her door but that was that.

Day 3 HBBigButt

So tonight i get her to come over to my house. She comes over late with no problem. I do my usual house tour then take her to my room. I sat on the bed and she sat on a chair. That was fine, just meant she needed more comfort but it was cool that she was comfortable enough to come to my house alone late at night and be in my room alone with me. So i break out my camera and tell her to sit beside me i'm gonna show her pictures. She obeys and i show the pics and tell stories it was a lot of fun, the intercation felt a mile away from the first one. After that we talked about a variety of topics, at some points there were some almost token silence filling topics that came up to just kill the silence yet neither of us really cared about the topic. Then some how we got on male female dynamics and passed relaitonships etc. We talked on this for a long time and it really felt good and natural etc. I would tease her and joke with her on everything too it wasn't just us sitting having some serious conversation. I played hand games with her like thumb war and slaps, held her arm made her flex and pretended to make her bicep look bigger etc. So we talked the vibe was really good. I also decided i need to start qualifying girls so i told her, you know what, your not like most girls. Theres something different about you. She of course was interested and asked me what what why etc and i said i don't even know thats what i'm trying to figure out, but i don't know you stand out from the rest of the girls here and i like that. So more talking etc then a big ass roach pops out then runs when i get the spray which pissed me off i hate fucking roachs. She stands up when i go get the spray and after the ordeal she says she has to leave since she was only supposed to stay for alittle while but ended up staying 2hours. Shes up already i'm thinking damnit sit down i have to go for this kiss. So we go down stairs then almost out side and i say i have to tell you something. I say i'm not trying to be like the mexican guys here (link to something she said in our male/female convo) but i really want to kiss you. She smiled and laughed and blushed and said not yet. I remained pretty cool i guess and said ok thats fine i just wanted to let you know, i'm not trying to weird you out or anything i'm just direct and straight forward with how i feel. She said it was good etc. then that was that and she suggested we hang out thursday.

HBStarbucks

I meet this girl on campus. Shes walking and i opened with my basic campus how do you get to xyz opener then vibing with wide rapport afterwards. Went well, we were talking for maybe 3-4min and i suggested we go somewhere to talk which she was down for. We go to starbucks. A lot of my buds are there so i'm getting stopped and chatted by a lot of people which was cool. She gets something i chill with her. We leave starbucks then go sit outside by the building she has class in. Had a pretty solid close she seemed very interested.

HBStarbucks Day 2

Meet her at the bar she just started working at. She was supposed to get off at 1:30 so thats when i came, instead there were assholes there still drinking so i had to go and wait for her. She would basically go work stop and come sit with me, we'd talk some then she'd work more. The conversation was ok. When i say ok i mean it doesn't feel real to me, it feels like just saying stuff that i don't care about to fill silence. Don't know if it felt that way for her or not. For me it felt as though i needed to say something like you know what, i'm going to be honest with you, i like something about you, i don't what it is but theres something about you that i like. Then from that point there would actually be shift change feeling inside of me and then interaction was well because now i'm coming from a more real place which makes me think i should just be using a direct opener off gate so its already framed correctly. After writing this i think the reason i feel this way is because i'm not coming from an honest place i'm sitting there attracted to them but not stating it which seems important because after doing so my state changes a lot and then the interaction does, becomes a real interaction where stuff flows naturally. So anyways i struggle through the bar watching drunk people that won't leave until 4:30. I honestly felt like throwing a grenade at the table of drunks that wouldn't leave. She finally gets off. Its been made clear that were going to my place. She says i'm hope were sleeping when we get there. We cab off to my house straight to my bed room. She takes her shoes off and bra off and hops straight into my bed. I hop in there too and hit the lights. Once in bed i figure well its def time so i tell her i want to kiss her and to this she freaks and says no no i can't no thats weird no no i just meet you no no all this crazy shit. I'm thinking hmmmmm. So i relax and lay back. We cuddle really tight, hold each other etc we all over each other. I go for the kiss again and get the same reaction. I pass out. Wake up and were all cuddled up on each other and i have a huge boner. I go for the kiss again, not having it. She lets me massage her whole back but when i go for her ass she freaks any part of her that could be sexual being touched freaked her. I finally ask her whats going on etc, she tells me that its so fast and that this was the first time she ever slepted in the bed of a guy she just met and she doesn't kiss etc. She had recently broke with a bf and felt weird etc. So i listen say thats cool. We head down stairs i get her a cab and thats that. I don't call her back or anything which may or may not have been wrong. Way i saw it was theres so many more girls to game, why waste time on a girl thats going to make a huge deal out of a kiss, then when i finally get her to kiss how long til sex. We'd be damn married by the time we were having sex and that last thing i need is another gf on top of the one i already have.

Day 3 HBStarbucks

So didn't talked to her awhile figured it was over. Then i get online one day she messages me said shes been emailing me, i check my mail and low and behold there was her email saying how she was sorry about that night and how it must of meant something because i was the first guy shes been associated with since breaking up with her bf. I chat with her on aim about it all tell her i like her and when i like someone i'm honest and straight forward. I asked if she liked me as well and she said yes etc. So we make plans to hang out. We meet up at a park near her house. Have a pretty good time, conversation was pretty good since i was coming from a pretty real place but at the sametime it was never said outloud on the day 3 how we felt like we never discussed what we talked about online, in person. So i still got that feeling of something needs to be said to make this feel more real. Basically we hang out and talk awhile , she shows me art work etc (i used that as a way to get back to her room but the joke was on me since i wasn't aloud in her dorm so i had to sit outside and have her show me her art work. We go back to the park. Were on a bench and were cuddling really nice. I'm rubbing her head etc. Its time for me to get out of there and she had stuff to do as well so we end it and i go for the kiss under a tree in the park in an isolated spot. Of course she doesn't go for it again, which was frustrating for me. So the next time i see her online and she talks to me i'm going to tell her thats its probably best we don't talk since i like her a lot and feel all these urges towards her, but shes very slow with that kind of stuff so it would just be a conflict between us. I'd always be sitting there the whole time wanting to act on my emotions while shes sitting there feeling distorted at the idea of a kiss. So i'm going to tell her that it would probably be a waste of each others time (which it has been for me other than the day2 and day 3 experience) this way shes either gonna go for it or let it go. Either way i win. If she says its best we don't talk then i don't have to wasate anymore time with her and her elementary school kiss phobia or if she says she'll meet my standard then were having sex very soon which is also cool.

Day 2ing it

So heres my situation now. I'm getting day 2's like its nothing now. I don't even feel like i'm putting out good game or anything, i just open lone wolves during the day, get on a roll and can't stop myself from opening sets. I'm slowly getting more comfortable on day 2's now but i'm still lacking a structure that will enable me to have the chick in a isolated seduction situation.

My fuck buddy is def holding me back or i should say my inability to want to risk screwing the fuck buddy situation up (regular sex, free laundry, free internet,etc) . If it wasn't for her living so close my day 2 would be have the girl meet me at my house, show her around the house introduce her to roommates (and possibly to go for it right then) then either take her to a quiet low key chill bar near my house if its night time or take her to the park near my house if its day time, from there back to my house to show her pictures then go for the kiss after playing tickling her.

I'm aware of the fuckbuddy situation and def didn't set it up right from the start. I basically got pigeoned into a relationship with her at least in her mind.

Anyways i'm getting aggressive and looking to have at least 1 day 2 everyday. I had one thursday night which was so so, got good towards the end, i was really getting her laughing hard. But before it was like i was there wanting one thing but not owning up to it. Like i'm sitting there wanting to fuck her brains out but having some conversation with her to past the time so i could have sex with her which probably doesn't come off right. I'll still meet up with her again though, it went decent enough.

I have another day 2 soon. With this girl i'm going to let her know i'm interested really soon. Like i'll ask her some comfort questions and tell her wow thats so rare to find in a girl kind of thing and how i was attracted to her from the moment i saw her.....i def need to start using that really direct opener seems to set stuff up right from the begining.

I have another day 2 for tomorrow that i need to comfirm with this sexy girl from kansas that lives in monterrey.

I also had another girl from a previous day 2 that spent the night but wouldn't kiss me recontact me saying how she was sorry about that night. We talked about it and i told her i'm direct and don't like hiding my intentions when i feel that way for a person so she agreeded she was on the same page as me so i'm looking to get her over tonight.

I gotta shower up and get on this day 2 i'll post back soon i'm probably going to have internet from my house

Update Time

Internet at my house is still obviously down although i can get it here and there if i sit out side on the porch with my computer.

Game is going good although i havent been going really aggressive like i did for Jan and Feb. My initial approach and follow up is pretty solid (at least for Monterrey Mexico on or near campus)

Most of that comes from me standing out so much which gets me passed the opening and hook stages. Ill def have to put a lot more work into the first stages when im back in the states but for now ill enjoy being able to basically skip that stage and move forward and concentrate on the later game.

Instant dating is a big piecie as well and something im going to work on this week. My goal for this week is to end up in an end game situation with 2 different girls from cold approaches. Im also working on my identity through exercises in grungeys ebook and also some other game stuff.

This past week i had a day 3 or something with a girl i went somewhere with awhile ago who brought a guy with her. I dont have the time to type the whole thing out so ill give a quick summary.

I basically end up alone with her in her room. My standard procedure is to go for the kiss in that situation but i bitched out because i didnt feel it would work right then (which it might not have) but going for the kiss is very important in that situation. Another part may have been the fear that comes with that. Ill go for it the next time.

I also met another girl from a cold approach and got her over to my place the next day. With her we spent some time talking, vibing, being playful, then i went through a lot to get a kiss. I just kept pushing forward and finally we were in a full on make out, her shirt came off she was on top of me grinding me very very hard through my pants, she put my hands on her big tits etc, passionate makeout all of the above then all the sudden stops dead in her tracks and lays down on the bed. I compare it to watching a good bball game, scores tied, 50s left team 1 has the ball everyone is watching to see what happens then the guy with the ball just walks off the court and sits down. WTF?

So she starts spilling emotional stuff on me. I talked to grungey about this and he said hes had this happen a lot. Some girls have a strong emotional link with sex so this explains why she got this way.

Im working on being able to go to see grungey for my spring break or when my friend takes a workshop with him. Im interning for him this summer and looking really forward to the experience and feel very fortunate to have it.

My trainer put me on a serious routine for lifting thats really demanding so im going to be owned by that too but i still feel like getting in 2 bed room situations with new girls from cold approaches is doable. (basically means getting 2 basic sets with an instant date and quick phone follow up, it could probably be done without an instant date here but the instant date would make things a lot easier on the day 2)